Many of us ask ourselves at some point: Why am I here? What is the meaning of all this? Does my life serve a purpose, and if so, what? For heaven’s sake, why does it have to be so unpleasant, hard, and seemingly unfair? Why are periods of joy and harmony so often disturbed?
For a long time I asked the same questions. I searched in my work, in relationships, in spiritual books, in personality types, in numerology, in astrology, and later in astral projection and out-of-body experiences. From childhood through school and into my professional life, there was always a background restlessness, sometimes subtle, sometimes loud, pushing me to look deeper.
I found many pieces that felt true and meaningful, yet the deeper unease remained. Something essential still felt missing. Only after years of exploring consciousness, guiding hundreds of sessions, and having profoundly direct experiences did the question finally begin to dissolve. Not because I adopted a comforting belief, but because I saw something directly that shifted how I see everything, including myself.
In this post I share what became clear to me through personal experience. Not as absolute truth for everyone, but as what I have witnessed from the inside, and what I recognize again and again in others.
The Individual Perspective: Three Types of Missions
When people ask about their life purpose during a guided OBE session, three broad categories can be distinguished. I like to stress that there is no hierarchy among these missions. A more experienced soul is not greater or better than a younger soul. All expressions are unique and valuable.
1. The learners / experiencers
The most common type. For these souls, Earth is primarily a school. The curriculum is incredibly diverse: loneliness, happiness, various forms of suffering, the dance of good and evil, the feeling of separation, what it truly means to be human. And many are here to resolve past-life issues, stop family karma, or gather specific experiences that benefit not only themselves but their larger soul group, sometimes an astral family on another star system, or sometimes those who will come after them.
2. The contributors / volunteers
These souls came to bring something to Earth, especially during this critical tipping point. They carry the intention and energy of love, light, balance, humor, healing, and/or change. Their presence and participation supports the collective shift. I estimate about one third of the people I guide carry a mission of this nature. (Dolores Cannon's The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth describes similar souls.) This sounds absolutely beautiful, but often I see these people struggle. Their struggle is often part of their process of preparation and aligning themselves with the powerful energy they carry. Another reason for struggling is the ignorance of how intense life on Earth can be, and the unpreparedness as a result of that.
3. The completers
The least common. These are souls on their final journey in this realm. Their work is to gather all previous life experiences, including trapped soul fragments, prepare for departure, and either return to where duality first began or move into the great unknown. Many also support the collective transition, acting as anchors or bridges, in case the human experience ends suddenly for large numbers of people. They often sense that the coming shift to a new consciousness could involve letting go of the physical body and this particular version of reality altogether.
The abstract perspective: The energetic flow
Zooming out, these individual missions are threads in a much larger fabric of experiences. The current life is the succession of many lives that came before. For some it is hundreds, for others thousands of past lives. A wonderful flow of an amazing variety of experiences.
In all these individual lives, as well as in the whole flow of all lives, we can perceive the process of creation: intention, birth, life, closure (death). I have once observed my own energetic flow from birth up to death, and it was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. At first I was a bit shocked about my death, but that faded instantly the moment I saw and felt the whole flow. It became clear that the beauty of this flow cannot be influenced by the lived details of a life. So however you are created, live or die, the energetic flow will always be amazingly beautiful; a perfect energetic masterpiece of art. If one individual flow is this beautiful, how about the whole flow of all lives combined? If we could see and feel our individual flow just once, it would be enough to find eternal contentment, gratefulness, and peace.
Many people think that all these experiences exist in order for the creator to experience himself. If this were true, then why so many experiences, or did it get a bit out of hand. Honestly, I don't know and have no conclusive answer yet. But I suspect it is not about variety. Contrast is needed for creation, but suffering is not necessary. Maybe it’s about creation itself, not about diversity. It is for the love and beauty of the energetic flow of creation. The choice of how we want to direct this flow, is ultimately in our own hands, the hands of all of our (past) lives combined.
The ultimate perspective: The natural state
Now, imagine you zoom out even further, beyond your body, life, world, universe, even beyond your soul journey. In the process of zooming out, let go of all beliefs, programming, attachments, thoughts, and other constructs. Observe that in which all is taking place, become aware of all and nothing simultaneously, and then let the observer dissolve, and realize your ultimate or natural state: non-duality, consciousness. No form, no senses, no thoughts, no fear, no time. Just pure awareness.
Then you assume, temporarily, duality again. The programming picks up, experiences of duality start to appear. But now you know: Life is a dream. But the dream is real. Real as an experience, not as ultimate truth.
The question that dissolved
Why am I here? I don't need to know that anymore. I experience what comes on my path, live the flow however it comes, in peace. And maybe, just maybe, just before we collectively let go of duality, we can look back and feel the whole flow we were part of. Pure love.
Living life means to respect the different stages of life we go through. And if you feel it’s important to understand the reason why you are here, or you have other reasons for a guided OBE journey, feel free to contact me for information. Just an open talk, without expectations.